My Tragedy

I have never been happier in my entire life than I am this very moment. Sans the sentiments about lost love and frustrating moments that false hopes generously provide.Now,  I am complete.

I have come to realize that it would be a waste of time to grope for something that wasn’t really there, that it only hurts to look back and see how things have changed (that’s why I won’t do it anymore), that I really really have to move on and throw away my excess baggage. Today I will finally say goodbye to THE ONE that bruised me the most. But I will do it not without tears for we shared good times as well as rotten ones. I will leave the memories behind and pray hard that someone better comes along. I miss him a lot, that much I have to admit, but life doesn’t end because he’s gone. I have a life of my own to live. I believe that he left me to give me a chance of finding someone who could truly make me happy. That thought comforts me and ease my pain, however minimal.

This will be the last time that I will think of you…this will be the last time that I will speak of you… and hopefully the last time that I will love you…   

Isang usok na bawal
Isang damdaming di pwedeng ipaalam
Ganyan ang tingin ko sayo
Isang malayong bituing di ko halos matanaw
Layuan mo ako, ayokong isipin ka

Hindi ko pwedeng maramdamang gusto kita
Hindi ka para sa akin
Nararapat ka sa iba
Layuan mo ako, ayokong isipin ka

Minsan kang pinagmasdan
Nalaman kong saki’y di laan
Lalayo na lang marahil
Hanggang tuluyang masupil ang damdamin
Layuan mo ako, ayokong isipin ka

Just wanna let everyone know that I’m happy, inspite of the fact that I am still on the process of accepting things and truths that I was supposed to have gotten over with a long time ago (but I did not have the courage to do that back then). I’m getting along just fine. Starting to enjoy my new life, new found friends and new chance for love (sana this time around, magkatotoo ang panaginip, at mapagbigyan ang dasal). Things are starting to fall in the right places. It’s easier for me to smile, to laugh and even to cry now. Guess, I’m really ready to let go…finally.